洗礼

总算告一段落。

感谢主神的恩赐，让我熬过了那些痛苦的日子。

虽然那些是灰色暗淡的，但却是生命中最重要的洗礼。

所谓洗礼，因为它像是一种思想改造程序。

艰辛的日子，却让我觉悟到过去的种种过失，腐败和颓废。

上一段的开始，是因为前一段的结束。

而上一段的结束，也意味着下一段的开始。

生命像是由许多小节段组成，许多的开始和结束，

若每上一段都是一种洗礼，那每下一段就会更好了。

经过无数连续的洗礼，人生也逐渐进步。

而所谓生命，即是一段的开始和结束。

这一生，要比前一生更好。

serendipity

I never expected it.

I have been single mindedly thought what I have been doing is just something personal, and no one would bother, or would I capture attention of anyone.

I thought with the end of the course, I would then commence a plain mundane life.

I never thought that I still have a choice; to choose what kind of life I am to live ahead, to choose where I would be and to be what I would like to be.  However, if situation allows.

By the way, doesn’t that mean I don’t have any choice already?

*****

It was the longest dream I ever had.

A dream lasted 3 years.

A dream I was not ready for its commencing, but it has ended abruptly on 3 August 2013 morning when I pressed the ‘send’ button of the last email attached with my portfolio.

Should I know how the past 3 years were to be, I would not have had the guts to go for it.

It begun with a simple intention to end a badly corrupted life.  A life I could no longer endure, a life no different from the living dead, a life I must end before it takes over me.

Serendipity?

It seems that every encounter is destined with a purpose,

I was destined to meet with someone, although he was not my final destiny.

I was destined to meet him in order to be redirected to my next destiny.

Hence I had the longest dream of my life, a dream I had never thought I would ever have.

*****

I am grateful that whatever the past has been. It is now history.